Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me

I love this song by the Fray ... and even more I love how it describes a tough time in life ... a total let down and heartache. Not that I am suffering a heartache or anything - but definitely a tough time.

I'm so very ready to be done with school. The stress that accompanies nursing school is sometimes unbearable. Am I always going to question if I am truly meant to be a nurse? I hate feeling like I'm in over my head (no, that's not another Fray song reference-ha!)... I don't like feeling like I am learning absolutely NOTHING! I pay way too much money for my education to feel like a moron. I know my S1 friends can totally relate with me right now. There IS a light at the end of the tunnel - it may very well be a big black train ... or it could be the outside of the tunnel - the REAL world!! I just need to pray for the strength to make it through this very last semester of tedious learning and frontloading; and then lastly NURSING BOARDS EXAM! I know I can do this ... I'm fighting with everything I have to kick this program in the butt and get that diploma I have poured so many tears into for the last year and a half!

This semester is especially rough. I am not very fond of Mental Health Nursing and it's definitely kicking my butt already. I cannot get interested in it ... the disorders I will probably love learning .. but not the history of psychiatry! BORING! Critical Care freaks me out!!! I don't know if it's because I'm still this very timid nursing student and a life and death situation scares me ... or if it's because I'm terrified of killing my critical patient!!! AGGHHH! I don't like EKGs because they are too complex. LOL! Please pray for me as I move through this semester and kick butt so I can walk that stage in DECEMBER!!!! I can't believe it's so close!!! :) I file for graduation and such around march/april so I'm very excited and that's when it will feel REAL! :)

In wedding news:
We booked the reception site. Hughes-Dillard Alumni Center at Baylor and it's beautiful. We ordered both cakes and they are everything I had wanted them to be! :) The flowers are ordered and are absolutely beautiful(thats the bridesmaids bouquet in the picture!)! I finally have my dress back in my possesion after getting it altered! It's GORGEOUS and I can't wait for Stephen to see it! :) We have a few other details to work out but I'll be updating those as we go! As far as the honeymoon - we are looking at Sandals in Jamaica!! WooHOO! :) I'm excited! I think thats about all thats going on in my neck of the woods!! Hope all is well out with all of you!!
xoxo!