Goodbye 08

So I was just sitting here on my couch with my 2 favorite pooches thinking about the past year! :) I am so incredibly blessed to live the life that I do.

January 08:

Began a new year with friends and fireworks. Best NYE to date! I started my J1 semester at UMHB and was excited to see where the future would take me!

February-May: kind of a blur. Just school, school, and MORE school. Oh and I got Ms Isaboo in March! YAY!! Shes a doll!






May:
Went on a week long trip to Mazatlan Mexico with 2 of my friends from Nursing School, one of her friends and mother and mother in law! BEST.TRIP.EVER! I had never left the country before nor had I ever been on a plane. It was all new and exciting at the same time. Oh, and the day I got back ... I got engaged to the man of my dreams. I should go on more trips if it means I'm going to get presents like that on my return! haha. :) Started working at Providence to bring in some money! :)

June-July: Celebrated 2 years of a wonderful relationship with Stephen. Worked my summer away. Turned 22 (whoo) and worked some more. No real big events later in the summer.

August: Started back my SECOND semester of nursing school ... with babies and kiddos I knew it would be my favorite semester so far! I loved couplet care and I know that's where I want to be someday! :)

September: I got THE DRESS!! It's beautiful and very me. It's everything I wanted it to be! :) Almost LOST one of my best friends to some stupid drama. It's amazing how much girls still act like they did in HIGH SCHOOL!



October: Not too much happened in October. (You see the trend of the year? SCHOOL OWNS MY LIFE!!!!) Dressed the dogs up for Halloween. It was HILARIOUS!

(Izzy and Bailey dressed up as COWS!!)

November: Gettin' ready to wrap up the semester and Thanksgiving with the family!

December: Hell week ... finals, finals, and more finals. I thought it would never end! I passed all of my classes and I am now OFFICIALLY a SENIOR!!!!! WHOO!! :) Enjoyed a great Christmas with the family!

Now, here I am about to start a new year full of school, our wedding, and graduation. I have no doubt that 2009 will be the best year ever! :) Bring on the new year! Be safe tonight! xoxo. B

OOOH we're halfway there ....

"OOOH living on a prayer. take my hand we'll make it I swear, oooohhh living on a PRAAAAYER!" - Our J2 theme song! :)

So as of today I have two weeks left of my J2 semester!! I am kinda freaking out right now!! As with my fellow classmates, I am panicking and wondering how the heck I am going to fit all of this studying into 5 days!!!!!!!!

Many of you don't know the stress that comes with nursing school so I will briefly enlighten you! :)

Starting Monday I have 2 OB tests, Tuesday 2 PEDI tests, Wednesday (by the Grace of God) we have a DEAD DAY!!, Thursday is J2 skills check-offs, Friday is my Comprehensive Final for OB, the following Monday is my Comprehensive Pedi Final, and then Tuesday I have OB and Pedi HESI!! ICK!!!!!!!! So let's do the math... 9 tests in a little over 7 days!!!!!!!! I'm going to have grey hair before December is over!! ha. It's super stressful and I can see why there is a nursing shortage ... so before you start thinking nurses aren't important ... I don't think Drs have nearly this stress.. We have to learn our own nursing aspect as well as the information to save the doctor's ass .. okay well maybe not BUT it's DANG hard work being in nursing school!!! :)

I'm not going to lie, I have been doubting myself quite a bit lately! I didn't do so hot on my last pedi test (panic attack RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE TEST!!!!) and I'm hanging by a THREAD!!! EEEEEEEKKKKK!! Pray for me. I know I can do it, I will do it ... I have to make a certain grade to even sit for final ... I'm so close to not being able to and it freaks me out! :) Pray that I can maintain all of the knowledge that I need to make it through this!

I am going into hibernation for the next 2 weeks so if you don't hear from me, don't think the worst! :) I'm doing all I can to stay sane! haha!! I love you all and I hope you all kick ass on finals!! :) xo. -B

Free Fallin'..

I feel as if I am right in the middle of a free fall and NO time to catch my breath .... and I absolutely l-o-v-e it! This semester is flying by and I am kicking OB/Pedi Butt!! :) This has been the best semester I have ever had in college. Aside from the drama, I am having the time of my life. OB is definitely my calling. I love seeing new moms and the babies!!

On another note, I got my wedding dress on Saturday!!!!! I went in just thinking that I would be getting my veil, shoes and accessories. We went to the register to pick it up and sign the paper for it and they told me my dress was in. I thought there was a mix-up because they told me not until late November! I was ecstatic!!!!! What a great surprise! :) I tried it on right then and it's absolutely EVERYTHING I thought it would be. Now I am even more excited and anxious for my wedding day! It feels like it's never ever going to get here!! LOL!! Mom didn't cry this time ... hey, it's a start! :) ha. We took the dress home and now I just want to wear it all the time ... haha. June 27th needs to hurry up and get here! :) :) :)

We haven't really done a lot with the wedding plans recently. Still can't find a place for the reception ... it's ridiculous how much people want for these places ... ugh. Anyway, back to studying for OB ... I'll update more later! :)

PS: I so wish I was here right now with margarita in hand .... :) This is the sunset from my last night in Mexico! Absolutely beautiful! :)

I delivered a BABY!!!

OMG! I delivered a baby today ... okay, well obviously not by myself ... but I was totally all up in the delivery. I was helping the girl push and got a little queasy at the sight ... but it's a beautiful thing!! I was so excited to be asked to stand in and help. The patient I was assigned to was not progressing nearly fast enough for me to see anything. She was an awesome patient ... just not about to have a baby!! ((I just hope her labor doesn't last too much longer, she was definitely miserable!!)) My nurse pulled me in and I got hands on with the delivery. I got to see what the L&D nurse really does! It's pretty cool. I definitely do not see myself as an L&D nurse after graduation ... labor is extremely boring to me ... but the delivery was AWESOME ...

Oh, and if you are looking for an amazing birth control ... stand in on a delivery .... you will never want to separate your knees ever again .... hahaha! It was pretty cool though! God is truly awesome and I am totally amazed at how He can create such a beautiful human being! :)

Anyways, off to do some more clinical paperwork! Just thought I would let you all know ... I'm a PRO baby catcher! ;) Smooches!!

-B

Like Everyone, Trust No One

Once again, I am back to square one with a particular friendship. I am to the point where I am no longer worried about what friends I have or who my current BFF is ... I'm OVER it. My true friends are there through thick and thin ... wouldn't let a PATHOLOGICAL liar come between us ... and would definitely talk to me if something were wrong ...

I am at school to get my BSN degree and walk across that stage with my diploma and get that pin I have worked my ass off for ... if you aren't walking with me then get the hell out of my way. I've got goals and dreams and NO TIME for petty DRAMA. I'm taking care of me and at the end of the day ... it's about who will be there through everything ... ME!! Sucks that it's coming down to this, but I think it will make my life so much easier. I am not here on Earth to please anyone but myself and God. If I'm happy with who I am ... I could really care less about the opinions of someone else.

I was concerned about a friend and it got me nowhere. I had no idea being a great friend with concerns could backfire. Oh well, I'm off to study so I can rock this Pedi test everyone is a wreck over! :) smooches!
-B

Thou shall not lie ....

It's written in stone .... well, was at one time ... but I personally believe it is one of the most important of the commandments. People today are so deceitful and just plain evil.

(WARNING: this is going to be a rant ...)

It really is amazing how people can lie and feel absolutely NO remorse for what they have done. I believe those people need a serious psychiatric evaluation. Lying for pleasure or your own personal gain?! ... I mean come on?!

I just researched "mythomaniacs" or pathological liars ... and it's scary how closely it resembles this particular person ..

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Pathological liars, or "mythomaniacs," may be suffering from histrionic personality disorder or narcissistic personality disorder. The following comments basically reflect a pathological liar who has the characteristics of histrionic personality disorder.

Some characteristics:

1. Exaggerates things that are ridiculous.

2. One-upping. Whatever you do, this person can do it better. You will never top them in their own mind, because they have a concerted need to be better than everyone else. This also applies to being right. If you try to confront an individual like this, no matter how lovingly and well-intentioned you might be - this will probably not be effective. It's threatening their fantasy of themselves, so they would rather argue with you and bring out the sharp knives than admit that there's anything wrong with them.

3. They "construct" a reality around themselves. They don't value the truth, especially if they don't see it as hurting anyone. If you call them on a lie and they are backed into a corner, they will act very defensively and say ugly things (most likely but depends on personality), but they may eventually start to act like, "Well, what's the difference? You're making a big deal out of nothing!" (again, to refocus the conversation to your wrongdoing instead of theirs).

4. Because these people don't value honesty, a lot of times they will not value loyalty. So watch what you tell them. They will not only tell others, but they will embellish to make you look worse. Their loyalty is fleeting, and because they are insecure people, they will find solace in confiding to whomever is in their favor at the moment.

5. They may be somewhat of a hypochondriac. This can come in especially useful when caught in a lie, for example, they can claim that they have been sick, or that there's some mysteriously "illness" that has them all stressed out. It's another excuse tool for their behavior.

6. Obviously, they will contradict what they say. This will become very clear over time. They usually aren't smart enough to keep track of so many lies (who would be?).

Ding ding ding .... and there you have it ... I just diagnosed someone with a mental illness! :) Yay me! :) Looks like this education is really starting to pay off.

So the lesson of the day!:
Keep your friends close and your enemies closer! ;) I definitely learned who to trust and who to never tell a single detail of my life to! It sucks what had to happen but "cest la vie "...

One.Word.Only

1. Where is your cell phone? desk
2. Your significant other? work
3. Your hair? bun
4. Your mother? funny
5. Your father? fireman
6. Your favorite thing? dogs
7. Your dream last night? hmm
8 Your favorite drink? tea
9. Your dream/goal? graduate
10. The room you’re in? office
11. Your hobby? studying
12. Your fear? death
13. What do you want to be in 6 years? happy
14. What you’re not? awake
15. Muffins? blueberry
16. One of your wish list items? BSN
17. Where you grew up? Waco
18. The last thing you did? wrote
19. What are you wearing? pjs
20. Favorite gadget? laptop
21. Your pets? labradors
22. Your computer? overworked
23. Your mood? excited
24. Missing someone? stephen
25. Your car? white
26. Something you’re not wearing? socks
27. Favorite store? target
28. Like someone? love
29. Your favorite color? green
30. When is the last time you laughed? today
31. Last time you cried? yesterday

27 dresses ...

The number of dresses I tried on at David's Bridal yesterday ... well, not really. HAHA! I tried on more like 8 or 9. I found the dress of my dreams (which happens to be the first one I ever loved in the catalog!!) and my parents bought it for me! They are absolutely amazing. I got the most beautiful veil ... I've never been into those much, but as soon as I put it on ... It all sank in. I'm getting married in 289 days!!! My mom was totally fine until I put the veil on ... then the tears started pouring!!! LOL!! She said it was just like getting a prom dress (in white) and the veil is what made me a "bride!"!! She loves the dress and I am so excited to see Stephen's reaction whenever I walk down that aisle!! :) AHH I'm getting butterflies right now just thinking about it!

Stephen has to be the best groom-to-be .... EVER! He's always SO willing to help me out with any details ... make phone calls ... and voice his opinion!! I am so lucky! :) Anyway, I thought I would give a little update on what's going on right now! School is going full force into one of the busiest semesters of my life and I am LOVING it!! :) I'll update more later!!

xoxo! -B

Back into the Grind ....

School starts again on Wednesday! I must say that it really doesn't feel like time to be going back! I'm kinda bummed that my summer vacay is coming to a complete HALT ... lol! I went and got my schedule for the week and they really aren't playing.

First Day : 8-4 (complete with Med Calc Exam)
2nd Day: 8-4 (Skills check offs)
3rd Day: 8-11 (a generous break if you ask me!!)

Looks like I'm going to be living under a rock again for the next 3.5 months! :( I'm going to go ahead and make my apologies now .. Sorry for not answering phone calls/emails/texts, Sorry for turning a good time down, sorry for being an old lady and calling it a night at 8 pm, sorry for sounding like a complete "crackhead" because of my lack of sleep, and mostly sorry for the lack of compassion when you complain about how tired or busy you are! ;) lol.

I'm actually very excited underneath all of this nervous-ness. I love pediatrics and OB and it's going to be fun! :) I hope I get lots of opportunities to learn and get lots experience. I'm going to be working in the emergency department at Scott and White this semester and I cannot wait!!!!! I'm going to be right in the middle of one of the largest trauma centers in the US!!! Woo!!

In Wedding News:
I'm going to David's Bridal on Labor Day to look for the dress of my dreams! :) I can't wait!! We went to a bridal show yesterday so I got lots of ideas! :) I'll keep you posted as things go on! :)

Hot Diggity Dog!!

Whew! It's so hot outside! My desktop weather reader is telling me it's currently 102 outside....yikes. Tomorrow and Monday are highs of 107!!!!!!! I can't wait until this summer heat is over. I used to love it as a child, but now it's just unbearable. I can't stand the thought of working outside in this heat. My dad and grandpa have gone back to work and I pray that they can hold out just a little longer until it cools down. He's having to leave the job site at lunch time because the heat is so bad. I don't blame him either.

I'm beginning to become more of a winter person. I love cuddling up by the fire and drinking my hot cocoa! :) I love sweaters and jeans more than I love shorts and tank tops ... weird, huh?! I would much rather swim in a indoor pool than an outdoor one.

Amy Layne's wedding is coming up in TWO WEEKS!! OH MY GOSH!! It seems like just yesterday we were in 8th grade in Video Production ..... it's so crazy how time flies by ....

Here we are at our Senior Prom! (Now, we are all engaged too!)

Amy and I in Government Senior year! (BEST CLASS EVER!!)


Now all grown up .... At Amy's Showers!
I am so lucky to have a friend like her! :) I look forward to many more years of firsts with her!!! :)

Newness!

I moved blogs yet again... I wanted to start fresh. :)

And, I know I'm not officially Mrs Gohring YET .... BUT I will be in 333 days and this is going to keep me from having to change again! :) Let the countdown begin!!